Feb 092016

what-is-the-truthThanks to my friends for putting up with me and my incurable curiosity and search for the Truth.

If you are so inclined, the following is a pretty good example of how pretty much all the discussions I’ve had with Evangelical believers, pastors even theologians goes. It presents the basics of my particular unresolved issues with regards to the typical “Christian” Apologetic….and some food (not bread 馃槈 ) for thought.

Click the link below to read the thread.

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 Posted by at 8:26 am
Feb 022016
Saeed Abedini's arrest record for Domestic Assault and guilty plea in 2007.

Saeed Abedini’s arrest record for Domestic Assault and guilty plea in 2007.

“Save Saeed!”

How about save his wife and kids. Attached is Saeed Abedini’s arrest for Domestic Assault and his guilty plea in 2007. Naghmeh Abedini has gone public with abuse allegations….and already Calvary Chapel is circling the wagons and standing by their man….just like with their beloved Pastor Bob Grenier of Calvary Chapel Visalia who is accused of molestation and physical child abuse by his sons/step-sons.

Link to readable Arrest Record:


Calvary Chapel’s lax stance and enabling of Domestic Abuse and Child Abuse has to stop.

The Calvary Chapel church sect and Non-Denomination Denomination rails at the outsiders….the homosexuals, the heathens outside their walls…and finds all manner of excuse to wag its collective fingers at everyone else….except themselves. That is the OPPOSITE of what their bible teaches and they claim they teach “simply”.

1 Corinthians 5:12It isn’t my responsibility to judge outsiders, but it certainly is your responsibility to judge those inside the church who are sinning.

Nope, not Calvary Chapel. They can hold mega-conferences, raise millions of dollars, band together for all sorts of Christian-entertainment and idiotic “Prophecy Conferences”….which is a real Profit-cy endeavor. My prophecy? They are always wrong…but collect a lot of money from the suckers.

Hey, Calvary Chapel….deal with your own garbage. You guys suck. Your pastors are no different than any other walk of life…in fact, many times are much worse. I know where a lot of the bodies are buried, I know many of your scandals. You promote yourselves as “Specially Anointed by God!” and sell a false “Transformation Gospel!” You put on appearances, you put yourselves on a stage and at a podium to be worshipped. You promote yourselves as something you are not. You are liars.

Then when the scandal fires get too hot and you can’t weasel out of your bullshit….you then claim, “Well, we’re all just sinners! Don’t put any of us on a pedestal! Grace covers a multitude of sins!” Ya, how about lead with that and get your asses off the pedestals that YOU erect for yourselves…and stop wagging YOUR fingers at all the other sinners.

Matthew 23. You guys are a bunch of jerks. I’m a jerk, too….but you’ll know it up front because I’ll tell you….and I won’t be a lying hypocrite making money from selling your false Calvary Chapel “transformation” bullshit gospel for greedy gain and following and building your CC franchise “ministry”.

 Posted by at 1:10 pm
Feb 012016
Naghmeh Abedini has gone public with Domestic Violence allegations against her Calvary Chapel pastor husband, Saeed Abedini.

Naghmeh Abedini has gone public with Domestic Violence allegations against her Calvary Chapel pastor husband, Saeed Abedini.

Naghmeh Abedini is my hero.

Domestic Violence and Child Abuse are issues near and dear to my heart….especially as a Child Abuse survivor and witness to much abuse at the hands of Bob Grenier, our Calvary Chapel pastor and step-dad.

It takes a lot of guts and courage to publicly confront these issues. I know, I’ve been ravaged online over and over, been maligned, sold-out, betrayed, even sued by Pastor Bob Grenier and my own mother for speaking publicly about his Abusiveness and Paul Grenier’s molestation allegations that he made under oath and to an Eagle, Idaho police detective, a prominent Child Abuse advocate, Chuck Smith, Dave Rolph, myself, many media outlets and bloggers and many others.

Paul Grenier made a suicide attempt after the Appellate Court rejected the Anti-Slapp motion and was visited a few months later (if memory serves). Soon after those visits….after over a decade of shunning from Camp Bob Grenier….Paul suddenly agreed to some sort of recanting of his molestation story. Paul’s recant is posted on this blog for your consideration…though it is not a recantation under oath. Many are suspicious about the sudden contact from Camp Bob and the subsequent rather abrupt recant after so many years of telling a consistent story to many.

Robert Grenier Jr. called me and several others a few years back and accused Paul Grenier of “molesting” him. I was floored. I didn’t want to believe it initially. The details, according to Robert Grenier Jr., went like this….he and Paul were engaged in “sodomy” and “oral sex” for several years in Pastor Bob’s home. Robert Jr. is a year younger than Paul and has always been physically larger. A “molestation” didn’t add up to me….but an ongoing incestuous relationship did….and where did this sort of perversion come from?

I know Bob Grenier exposed himself to me and Geoff often….walking around us naked as a common practice…genitals fully exposed to us. I remember Bob making me shower with him when I was 10 years old. It was very weird. Creepy in fact. Those are the only details of the showering I will disclose in this article. The whole memory of abuse is very upsetting….to this very day.

Naghmeh Abedini’s story is harrowing. I know what she is going through. She is already facing massive public scrutiny for speaking up about Domestic Abuse by her Calvary Chapel husband. “Private family matter” is the narrative from Calvary Chapel and Camp Bob Grenier with regards to his abuse….I’m hearing similar leveled at Naghmeh. Saeed has come out publicly denying the abuse. Where does Calvary Chapel stand? Is this a “private family matter”? Is Calvary Chapel going to side with Saeed as they have done with Bob Grenier, their “affiliated” Pastor?

The issues of Domestic Violence and Child Abuse are NOT “private family matters”….they are serious issues of Public Interest and very bad evils to confront…publicly…especially when the Abuser is a Pastor in a Position of Trust in our Society.

Naghmeh is a brave woman. She is doing the right thing. My own mother sold me out for my Abuser and their “ministry”…I am proud of Naghmeh for doing the hard thing and the right thing. She is to be admired and supported….and I applaud her for speaking out publicly as a way to inform the Public that these issues DO HAPPEN in “church” and Calvary Chapel…and they are wrong. They are not “private family matters” no matter how many times Calvary Chapel and Camp Bob Grenier repeat that mantra and sue and stomp their feet and hiss.

The Macro-Calvary Chapel Dynamic encourages spouses and women to “submit” to their Calvary Chapel Pastor husbands….and to keep things a “private family matter”. To speak out is to violate the Calvary Chapel “No Talk” rule. It is looked down upon and punished. It is wrong. It needs to change.

I am re-engaged in the Fight. I am going to redouble my efforts. I support Naghmeh and I will fight to the end with everything I’ve got.

 Posted by at 2:15 pm
Dec 032015

As I’m perusing my Facebook news feed this morning…something I am addicted…err, prone to do…this catchy, snappy post caught my attention: “Ha ha! I’m still alive! So I’ll go ahead and share the Gospel. Thanks Lord.” Turns out it was Pete J. Courson…son of the Courson Tribe…Celebrity Guru Status in the Calvary Chapel “Non” Denomination with tentacles all over the planet.

First off, I have no personal beef with Peter J. or his pops, John. While they seem to be typical Celebrity Gurus in Evangelicalism and still under the general Tent of Calvary Chapel…they don’t seem to be particularly dooshy like others of their “associated” or non-associated brethren. In fact, Pete seems a good guy in general…my one criticism being that he seems to like the adulation of being a mini-Celebrity quite a bit. I have followed him for awhile online…and while he tries to say he doesn’t like celebrity or promote celebrity…he engages in the same Dynamic that perpetuates it and doesn’t instruct others otherwise.

What I witnessed this morning is very typical….and I’m only singling out Pete because it is a fresh example and prompted the “holy spirit” in me to speak up…or maybe it’s the devil or the demons since my enemies say I’m the Anti-Christ…who knows. It’s probably just me being me, which is a critical thinker who has a very acute bullshit meter…especially when it comes to “religion” and “church” in today’s Evangelical Sub-culture.

Celebrity pastor-kid has some health issues, legit stuff, not funny…we all do or will someday…none of us are getting off this rock alive. Celebrity pastor-kid takes some sort of leave to deal with the health issues….folks in droves express their blessings and prayers and kiss his ass in a fashion only seen on par when it is a sports hero or movie star or a Kardashian. Celebrity pastor-kid has some sort of “miraculous” comeback and makes a simple post on Facebook….and then the Ass-kiss-pocalypse ensues.

It was truly amazing to watch…and I’m sure it will go on all day.

What is “the Gospel” of mainstream Evangelicalism in the USA today? It’s a Celebrity-driven, “Ministry” driven Gospel and resembles nothing I see of the example of Jesus in the Newer Testament. Not speaking against this perverse Dynamic is supporting the perpetuation of this perverse Dynamic.

Here’s the very beginning of the avalanche…and the point is this…if it was some guy you never heard of who attended and gave and served at that church his whole life but never got the spotlight and just did his thing quietly for Jesus…you’d never have known he had a health crisis…and you’d never have known if he recovered….and you NEVER would see this sort of adulation and support. THAT is your Celebrity-driven Evangelical “Gospel”…a big part of it.

Ha ha! I’m still alive! So I’ll go ahead and share the Gospel. Thanks Lord.

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 Posted by at 10:07 am
Nov 122015

Christianity Today reports that Saeed Abedini’s wife, Nagmeh, outs “abuse” in her marriage and halts her public advocacy for his release.

This public disclosure opens up Nagmeh to a defamation lawsuit, very similar to what Pastor Bob Grenier of Calvary Chapel Visalia has been doing for years…and Calvary Chapel Association and Calvary Chapel is likely to remain silent and back Saeed as is their practice over the years.

Read the full story here:


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